Had a fabulous weekend celebrating my 24th birthday with my sister in SD and LA. Super excited for more celebration next weekend.
Oy, I’m 24 today. I’m old.
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can’t take a selfie without making a ridiculous face got my nails done today.
This 30 day health challenge I’m challenging myself to is going strong so far. Today was all around good as well.
I went for a short 2-mile run today because I wanted to focus on my time. I got both of my miles just under 11 minutes, which is usually hard for me when doing multiple mile runs.
And food was on point today too. I like working these 7-hour shifts because I’m basically forced to meal plan something healthy and take it to work. It’s also saving me money.
I also had a victory I was patting myself on the back for when leaving work. My coworkers had ordered pizza, which was sitting on the table in the break room with everyone surrounding it nomming their face off. IT SMELLED SO GOOD. But I had already had dinner, it was like 830 at night, and I declined to take a piece. And yes, despite working at a gym, people still bring junk to share into the break room. I’m usually able to avoid it all, but damn did that pizza smell bomb. Go me for declining it.
Day 2/30 done.
So whilst out on my run this morning (3.2 miles at an 11 min/mile pace, woo! still got it) I thought about ways I could keep myself motivated to really stick with my journey and to start seeing weight loss again. I used to do pretty well with those 30 day squat challenges and whatnot, however the squats would begin hurting my knees by like day 20, so I would have to cut it short.
So I’ve decided to create my own healthy 30 day challenge for myself. This first month is going to be simple: do at least one healthy thing for yourself every day for 30 days. It can be tracking all of my calories and hitting my goal, it can be being active for at least 20 minutes, it can even be mental health related and be something like being completely happy the entire day. For 30 days, I’m challenging myself to put my health first and really refocus my efforts without overwhelming myself. And it can be more than one thing a day obviously, I just want to have the goal of doing AT LEAST one thing that will better my health.
Today I ran before work for 40 minutes. I also had a really good mental health day and did some yoga poses and stretching post-workout while listening to the song that has been on repeat the last few days due to the breakup. For me, it’s like a cleanse. I accept my feelings and then I meditate to clear them out of my mind. I felt so amazingly refreshed after and today has been a pretty alright day because of it. I also tracked (and did a little meal prepping as well) everything in MFP and it was a good day:
Day 1 of the 30 day challenge complete.
So I got this fortune a little while back when I was out at a Chinese food place with my family. I laughed when I first saw it because I was already in a committed, loving relationship and joked with him that I’m going to find someone new. And then we actually did break up a couple weeks later….
And I realized, this fortune is about the relationship I’m going to renew with myself. Or at least that’s how I’m choosing to interpret it. Things are hard right now, feeling like I lost the only person who understood me completely. I’m going to be that person for myself now. I’m going to really commit to the rest of this journey and focus on getting myself to where I want to be. I can’t be half in and half out like I have been since the holidays. It’s going to require much more time and dedication, but it’s what I want for myself.
So I’m going to find comfort in this new relationship with myself.
I just wish I could stop crying long enough to go to the gym. But then I’m worried if I try to do zumba class or even just going on the stairmaster, I’ll start crying halfway through. Maybe I’ll go for a walk/run just to get out of the house and stop staring at his now-empty drawer.
I thought being broken up with by someone was hard, but despite this being a mutual decision, it’s not any easier. It’s honestly much harder, because I can’t be mad at him. I’ve lost the only person who understood me so completely and so effortlessly.
Post-breakup check list:
Check, check, check, and check.
If I’m a little less perky and positive the next week or so, you all will understand why. Thanks for being wonderful followers <3
I’ve gotten a huge surge of motivation suddenly, and I feel like I need to write all these goals and plans down to keep this motivation up. Maybe it’s the new planner I got or the quickly-approaching New Year. I’m thinking it’s probably today’s realization that I will have been graduated for a full year before I know it and haven’t made much progress in figuring out the “life plan.” Sure I’m employed and (very) slowly building up my savings, but I can’t waste my $200k degree on working at a gym childcare for the next 5 years. I really miss school because I was good at school. Figuring out what to do for the rest of my life? Not very good at that part. I have so many interests, but I also have to be realistic. There are a lot of things I could see myself being good at and doing, but I feel like I’m not where I need to be to make them careers. And even though it’s only been half a year, I feel the window of opportunity for grad school quickly closing - so I have to decide if pursuing a higher education in the next few years is worth it. Now I feel more stressed than motivated.
All I know is I want 2014 to be an amazing year full of accomplishment. And I think I have to start with finishing my journey to better myself first.