Day Thirty

New weight/measurements! How do you feel? Are you going to continue to get healthier? What are you plans for next month?

Height: 5’6”

Starting Weight: 235.4
Current Weight: 211.2

Starting Bust - 47”
Current Bust - 45”
Starting Waist - 42”
Current Waist - 38”
Starting Hips - 49”
Current Hips - 46”
Starting Thigh - 26.5”
Current Thigh - 25.5”
Starting Upper Arm - 16”
Current Upper Arm - 15.5”

Starting Jean Size: 18
Current Jean Size: 16

WOW. This is so awesome to see that just after one month, I’ve lost that many inches. 4 inches from my waist in just 30 days? That’s awesome. Taking measurements is definitely a good idea because even if you’re not losing the pounds you want, you could be seeing the difference in the inches you lose. Also, another pound down from my last weigh-in on Monday! Woo!

And yes, of course I am going to continue to get healthier. This isn’t just a temporary fix, this is a lifestyle adjustment. I will be continuing to get healthy and stay healthy for the rest of my life. I thought about it yesterday, and even after I reach my ultimate goal and feel healthy and happy, I will continue to count calories and exercise daily to stay feeling healthy. If I don’t, I’ll just end right back where I started, and I’m never going back there again. 

My plans for next month (July) are to just continue eating right and going to the gym 5-6 days a week. I’d like to try more variety of exercises too, like taking classes at the gym or going for bike rides and whatnot. I also plan to see even more weight loss and hopefully get 5 pounds or so within my goal of being under 200! I’m 12 pounds away. So close, I can taste it.

Day Twenty Nine

What is your definition of beauty?

I think like most other things, beauty is all a matter of opinion. There are also different types of beauty. There’s the beauty most think of when hearing the word, beauty that is aesthetically pleasing to the eye, but there’s also beauty of the heart, mind, and soul. I know so many people with such beautiful hearts and beautiful minds, and that’s why I surround myself with them and call them my friends. And I think what we all tend to forget is that there is no one universal rule for classifying beauty, whether it be of the mind or the face. I may be attracted to someone that my friends don’t see the appeal of at all. It’s all a matter of opinion. I think beauties of the heart, mind, and soul are more important than that of the body or face. Sure I can appreciate a someone who’s beautiful in the attractive sense, but if they’re not a good person than that beauty of theirs will only get them so far. Looks fade and change over time, but your heart and soul is created by you, only you. So I think it means a great deal more if you worked hard to make yourself a good person than if your good genes gave you a pretty face.

Day Twenty Eight: What part of your body are the most proud of? Show it off with a picture!
I like my ankles a lot. Is that weird? I’ve even gotten compliments on them. Haha I don’t know, I guess because they’re like skinny girl ankles, but not on a skinny girl? I think it’s the years of figure skating that helped define my calves and ankles, so they look nice. 

Day Twenty Eight: What part of your body are the most proud of? Show it off with a picture!

I like my ankles a lot. Is that weird? I’ve even gotten compliments on them. Haha I don’t know, I guess because they’re like skinny girl ankles, but not on a skinny girl? I think it’s the years of figure skating that helped define my calves and ankles, so they look nice. 

Day Twenty Seven

Are other people in your life trying to get healthy/living healthy? How do you handle being around others who do not ascribe to/support your lifestyle?

When I first came home for the summer, my mom was doing Weight Watchers again and trying to get back down to a healthier weight. She’s never been someone who’s overweight really, but she’s a runner and when she went back to school she had less time for running and gained 20 pounds or so. So she’s now back to down to her goal weight and working on maintenance. She’s probably my biggest supporter and helps to bring healthy food in the house because my dad and grandma are definitely inclined to eat unhealthy food. They’ve come around to my healthy recipes and healthy shopping though, so it’s good to have support at home. It’s still a battle because my dad has been cooking unhealthy for 30 years, so it’s hard to get him to change his recipes and show him he doesn’t have to cook things with sticks of butter (he literally puts a stick of butter in the pot when cooking corn) or unnecessary additives. He doesn’t realize you can have flavorful food that’s still healthy.

My friend Caroline has been on a health journey as well for the past year and she looks AMAZING. She eats pretty much only whole, raw foods (she’s vegetarian) and we’re gym buddies when our schedules allow it. She’s a great source of inspiration! None of my other friends home in SD are really unhealthy, so I don’t have to worry about being around unhealthy food when hanging out, but my friends in SF are pretty much all blessed with fast metabolisms and a love for alcohol, so I’m wondering how I’m gonna handle outings when I go back to school. I just have to really try and stick with my no eating past 10pm habit and limiting the alcohol consumption! I’ve got a couple gym buddies up there though so that’s good :)

Day Twenty Six

What keeps you motivated? Where do you find positive influences?

I’m really so glad I’ve found the fitblr community and the couple fitblrs I constantly reblog that I visit daily. It’s strange to think you can find so much motivation and inspiration from people and blogs you don’t even know, but it’s totally my source for motivation. I also love shows like The Biggest Loser and Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition. Those true stories make think I can succeed and make me want to someday be a before and after like them. I also find motivation and inspiration in my friends and family. So many of them are going after things they truly want and none of them bring me down for being on this health journey. I also want to be able to keep up with them and grow old with my friends and live longer than my parents; and to be able to achieve those things, I need to get healthy. 

Day Twenty Five

What is a type of workout that you never expected to enjoy but now love?

Running on the treadmill. If you read my treadmill fear post, you’ll understand why I never expected to love doing it. But now when I’m at the gym, I keep looking back at the treadmill, making sure there are available ones to hop onto after my warm up. I like how powerful I feel after running, and there’s air conditioning in the gym so I don’t die from the summer heat running outside haha. I guess I just like jogging/running because I can clear my thoughts and listen to music and such. You should all try it, whether it’s walking, jogging, running, or a combination of the three, just go outside or take in the nature around you and really listen to your thoughts. It’s good “me time”

Day Twenty Four

How do you feel about the “pro-ana” and “thinspo” community of weight loss on tumblr?

I was shocked when I first found out about thinspo blogs and people with eating disorders blogging about it and forming a little community for themselves. I know some people don’t have experience with eating disorders, so they don’t know what it’s like to have one or be around someone with one, but it truly is a disease. I think people tend to forget that when they send anonymous hate to these blogs, telling people that they’re fat or dumb for trying to starve themselves. By sending those messages, you only feed into that mentality that they need to change and they need be under 100 pounds. Anorexia and bulimia are not something that can be turned off like a switch; it’s a lifelong battle. That’s why I urge EVERYONE who thinks there’s a chance they could have an eating disorder or are on the brink of one to seek help immediately. You don’t want to go down that path, trust me. The amount of damage you can do to not only your body but your self esteem is NOT worth it. And for anyone who has a friend with an eating disorder, please seek help for them. They usually won’t get the treatment they need until they are in a hospital bed because they burned their throat from the stomach acid or they fainted and broke their weak, brittle bones. 

And I really wish people would stop glorifying eating disorders. Even if you don’t have one yourself, put you post pictures of girls (or guys) that are clearly malnourished and underweight and suffer from an eating disorder, you’re making it seem like looking like that is fashionable and something to strive for. IT’S NOT. That’s why on this blog you will only see pictures of models/celebrities/people that are in shape and look healthy. I hope that those in the fitblr community can help out those in the pro-ana and thinspo community to see that they need to seek help.

Day Twenty Three

How does the media influence your drive to lose weight?

I don’t think it does at all really. I feel like I’m really at an age and point in my life where society and the media don’t affect me like it did in middle and high school. I’ve grown into a person who’s happy with herself and happy with how her life is going, with the exception of her health. So to make myself happier, I decided to improve my health. No influence from outside sources. However, I do look to the media to find inspiration and keep me motivated. I’m a total junkie for The Biggest Loser and Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition because I can always find someone I connect to. And it helps keep me going; thinking, if they can do it, I can do it too. So while I post pictures of fit celebrities and fangirl over these shows, it’s for sources of inspiration, not imitation. I am my own person and my body will look like my own. I know I will never look like the Victoria’s Secret models because they are airbrushed. My body will be my own work and my own achievement.

Day Twenty Two

At what weight did you feel the happiest? Why?

Honestly, it’s hard to choose a weight I was happiest at when I’ve never been happy with my weight. I’ve been overweight since I was a kid, so I don’t know what my healthiest weight is or what I should be at. But I think when I was a kid and didn’t worry about my weight so much I was happiest. I wasn’t classified as overweight yet, cause I was just a kid, you know? But right now I’m happy because I’m getting stronger and changing my life. And I will be happy at any weight I am after this because I will not be going back up to the 200s. My weight - that number on the scale - does not dictate my happiness. How I feel and how I look is what will make me happy.